I do not know you personally and so have nothing to say in response to your claims of innocence. I can only ask what is your response to this Bible verse: "…Whoever believes in Him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe has already been condemned, because he has not believed in the name of God’s one and only Son." - John 3:18. May I admit that you're a better person than I ever was, but I guess I'm asking if you have ever had a "to Jesus ment?"