Unfortunately, later on l (a couple decades or so) as God opened doors for me, I began to leave Him outside (kind of having to peer through a window). I thought I knew what I was doing, but found out I had very narrow vision, not an overabundance of character, little insight and wisdom... So, now, not being able to sweep up any of the messes I made, I am wholly dependent on God's grace - with less than one thing I could boast about. I'm not looking for sympathy - just want your to not make the same mistake by being aware of mine.